If anybody can answer this, please do so... Why is it that I feel so lethargic and that I can't do anything for myself? Why can't I just get up and do something to the best of my abilities and not feel bad about what could come of it? Why can't she commit? Am I not worthy of some promise? Am I not the right person to be commited to? Am I just one more thing to be carried around by someone's else arm? Why can't I feel more like a person instead of an object?

Why is this? Why can't just find a reason for myself? .... You know what, I think that is a good enough reason.... Why is it so wrong to do something for others? Why can't I do what I do best for someone that I care about? Isn't that good enough? So, am I supposed to believe that I have to do it for myself or for others?